elephants.

i had a pleasant walk this morning over to the buildings. the weather's pretty nice and my ipod was serenading me with some cake. [sidenote: wouldn't it be cool if my ipod actually dispensed cake?! preferably chocolate. or jello.] and on this gorgeous walk i got to thinking about being in love. hey, calm down - this is my FIRST love blog. these thoughts came to mind because i was listening to the song 'love you madly' - quite possibly the most unorthodox love song i've ever heard.

'I don't want to wonder
If this is a blunder
I don't want to worry whether
We're gonna stay together
'Till we die

I don't want to jump in
Unless this music's thumping
All the dishes rattle in the cupboards
When the elephants arrive

I want to love you madly
I want to love you now
I want to love you madly, way
I want to love you, love you
Love you madly

I don't want to fake it
I just want to make it
The ornaments look pretty
But they're pulling down the branches
Of the Tree

I don't want to think about it
I don't want to talk about it
When I kiss your lips
I want to sink down to the bottom
Of the sea

I want to love you madly
I want to love you now, yeah
I want to love you madly, way
I want to love you, love you
Love you madly

I don't want to hold back
I don't want to slip down
I don't want to think back to the one thing that I know I
Should have done

I don't want to doubt you
Know everything about you
I don't want to sit across the table from you
Wishing I could run

I want to love you madly
I want to love you now
I want to love you madly, way
I want to love you, love you
Love you madly'

as ridiculous as this sounds, it actually makes sense. and makes me realize that i've never been in love. [not even with that guy that i fawned over for THREE years in high school..] i've never had this assurance that it's all gonna be okay..that i could spend the rest of my life with that person. but hey..i'm 19, and that's a damn good thing. and i've never had a sea-sinking kiss, not yet. but i have had that feeling sitting across the table wishing i could run. yikes..my black book is on fire. i'm open to the prospect of falling in love..but current status: not in love.

that is all.